i couldn't end it

last night was one of those long nights. i was dreaming... and my last one was really scary. in fact it was so scary that when i woke up i wanted to try and end it happily ever after.. becuase i knew that if i didn't end it... i would die in my dream.
i couldn't end it.

So today seems as good and as hopeful as any. I am really busy this last day of march... and I am really excited for April.  That means just one month and a half before school ends. I got a job.. I can't remember if I already wrote this but I start April 6th which is next wednesday. AHHH I am really nervous.

Right now I don't want to go to college this second.

I don't ever want to go to school again.

It better be good up there... that's all I can say.

1984

well, when I first started my blogging experience whenever I would type a post I would write a title first. No. That is not the correct way for me. I always need to start writing for awhile until a perfect title pops into my mind. POP! you see one just did.

Anyway I am up north right now and enjoying my time away from home and Hurricane. I toured my future university which was pretty fun! I really like it there. Out of all the colleges and universities I've been too this one has really stuck out to me as being the best. I feel comfortable there. AND that is important.

In other news..... wait I have no other news. I am reading the book 1984 by George Orwell. I'm not really sure I understand all of the deep stuff yet but I'm sure it will come to me...     I hope so anyway... this is actually a book I really do want to understand.

sincerely sierra

sincerely busy

i am just going to write whatever is on my mind starting now.

There is so much of the world that I haven't seen. In a way this depresses me but it also gives me hope. I mean if I had already seen the whole world there would be nothing new out there for me to see. I have been thinking about this since I met some people from Canada, and then watched Charlie's video of his childhood in Bath England... and with a friend of mines sister being in Thailand I have had my mind on foreign places for quite awhile now.

I don't waste to much time thinking about foreign countries and all the lands and places there are for me to discover becuase school has recently started up again. It looks like the last qtr. of high school will be just as hard as the rest and will definitely give me a run for my money... literally... becuase I don't want to loose any of my scholarships. Not that I have that many. It seems that every single scholarship I have applied for I have been turned down form.

Not suprised... and I also got a job... for this qtr. and for summer. I am excited for it but it's going to make me super busy for the months April and May. I just need to get through it one day at a time. Right.

Alright g2g :)

Sincerely Sierra

cast your fate to the wind

I got a new piano book and this song was included. One of my new favorites. I got the end the first time but couldn't find it.. I played it over and over trying to find the ending... (maybe the pages were mixed up) but now I realize that the ending is up to me and i'm suppossed to

..cast my fate to the wind....


it's my ending now

all the cloudy days

People look more pretty today then they did yesterday.



Maybe it's the weather....

simply, with expression

lets stick together.
It's weird to me how sometimes I am sooooo scared for something, but when I am actually experiencing it, I stay calm and feel fine.
I hope that's how tomorrow's job i nterview goes; becuase I really want this job.
Today I saw an old friend. Nothing happened. So instead I bought a fish and named him Bernard. He is Beta

Bernard the Beta Fish

Sometimes I think I forget about the truly beautiful things that happen to me, everyday.
My little cousin Kylah called me and just wanted to talk.
...........Laughing with best friends.
Watching young love bloom into something more serious.
Me and my Dad looking at Bernard together in my room......
The Rain taking form of mist over a town that I love, a town that helped create who I am.

Spring Break is almost over. I think it has been one of the better breaks. In summer when I was little I was such an adventurer. Climbing, digging, falling.  Dreaming. So innocent with the a new adventure waiting around every corner. Threre was  nothing wrong in the world. Sometimes I wish that everything was still like that. I think I got a little taste of the young me this spring break. Seeing the lake with my family, watching movies again, and being outside. I always forget how much I love being outside. 

I won't forget anymore.

there is a song I am playing on the violin and it says to play the song "Simply, with expression..."
Is that an oxymoron?         Next time I do anything it's going to be simply with expression.

Even though there are a million things I want to change in my life... I am afraid that once I do I will want what I have back.

But everything good has a risk, doesn't it?

take me higher

39 more days left of senior year.
4 more days left of spring break.
2 more hours unitll I have a job call.
10 more minutes until I make cookies
1 second ago my aunt lauren called.

I am slightly sad and slightly happy right now., and it's one of those weird moods. I want to do something with my friends.... but no one ever calls.

so ....

So nothing.

send me to the brink

Good and Bad
Bad and Good

Nothing has really been going different... then usual. I find myself extremely happy though. Which is good. Maybe it's becuase that I am finally in the final quarter of all of grade school. finally in the final.  
Which has brought on an onslaught of thoughts and emotions. Am I ready for this? For responsibility? For my life?

Everything is open, it's free, it's my descision.... my life.  Please let is all go well ... please. :)

I will just hold on to the things that I know are true

True to Myself
True to my Family
True to my Friends
True to Music
And Truth in the Gospel

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<I think I will be fine.

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daddy knows best

As of Lately:

• Region Solo & Ensemble
• Harry Potter
• Mumford and Sons
• Failures in Everything Related to Academics

And my Dad always says to smile and daddy knows best.
Tonight is March Mayhem at Desert Hills and at Desert Hills is SUPAF gift pick up with the orchestra. I am excited for Spring Break which is next week. I seriously need a Spring Break and I am going to fufill things on the Senior List.     Right......   Becuase senior year is almost over and I am a couple of days away to being in the fourth quarter of the last year of all of my high school. Which is a positive thing.

white blank page

a bird just landed outside my window and sang three notes....



i think that it is a sign that everything is going to be alright... so i'm not worrying 'bout a thing




sincerely sierra

everything is going...

DON"T WORRY ABOUT ME!!!!!  i only have to study for the GENERAL FINALS coming up.

It's going to be a busy weekend but I am super excited. The fashion show wen well last night and it was fun. Modeling is not in my future but at least now I know.

Also, I have my preference dress and i really love it! it's light blue. well anyway :)

great expectations

Alright.

My Dad says that it's the dissapointments and failures that make up our character. Right. Sometimes a person has expectations and when you expect something that never arives, even after hours and years of hard work, you might catch yourself looking down.

I thought I earned, I thought that was what all the hard work was for and all of the time spent.      All of that was wasted... only earning me 2,000 dollars when really I expected over 35,000 dollars.   No notta big deal at all.

i am told things will work out as long as I am looking up, but what is there to look at up there.

Remind me to look up.

sincerely sierra

all that glitters is gold

Well tomorrow I have a fashion show and on saturday I have PREFERENCE. It will be a fun weekend if preference works out. I am pretty excited, it will be super fun.

Sierra's Thoughts As-of-Lately:
HOMEWORK: becuase that's all I have time to think of..
TV SHOWS- like my life as liz and smallville and of course gilmore girls
FRIENDS-   I mean.. guys... seriously

                              Your Welcome

Well I am going to sign up for A-DAY and hopefully shaynae will come with me :) A secret about me: (I am super shy).   So I am nervous for this whole going to college and meeting new people thing. I am excited becuase I honestly just want to change my life from how it is in high school and my math teacher told the class that if you want a drastic change of people...move :)   Two negatives of leaving the people of Hurricane
Well 1st I am really going to miss my family and wish I didn't have to be away for such long periods of time. 2nd.. I haven't been away from this group of people since I was like 2... so I hope it isn't to much of shock. Ha.

   Also.. another thought.. it's weird how people change... one minute you think you know someone.. then the next second you are blown away by their actions. And honestly... I have enough change coming my way.

it's march...

my agenda for march

• Preference
• A-Day
• Doctors Appt.
• Alot of English homework and studying
• Smallville Seasons 4 and 5

Well... I think that's it anyway. :)
So it seems like a good month awaits me.. and it also means that I am one step closer to graduating. yes.


yes.

I am a terrible blogger. Haha. My life doesn't really  have anything to rave about right now, well except for the fact that i am obsessed with tom welling, and i have watched all of the seasons of gilmore girls twice now... (my weakness ) :D