Cazier

The first days of classes have been pretty good. I feel like I am already ready for summer though :/ I am not proud to say that I was 10 minutes late to my first ever college class which was French 1010. It was really a stressful and embarrassing time the trip to the campus. All in all things are going pretty well. I used to love to write but I believe I am having writers block. You'd think it would be the opposite since I am just starting this huge new adventure.
I have done a couple of fun things worth mentioning

• Met Roomates
• Moved Out
• Hiked to the Wind Caves
• Went to an actual rock concert
• Walked through the cemetery by my housing
• Was in a mosh pit
• Met a famous journalist
• Went to a college dance party
• Went to the taste of logan
• Started my first college classes
• LOVED MY FIRST DAYS AT COLLEGE

sincerely sierra

sounds of silence

lately i come to write on this blog and its like something is the matter with me... then I realize its becuase I am speechless.

college 101

well this is my 4th day here in Snow Hall. I LOVE IT! it is way way fun! i have met sooooo many new people and it has just been great. I am afraid for when the actual learning part of college starts.

my post have been short lately... i just have had so many experiences it frustrates me just thinking about trying to write them all.

today I feel really really home sick, but all is well



all is well!

Well here I am. Sitting here in my new apartment... listening to gilmore girls... scared and excited out of my mind. I miss my family all ready... i keep forgetting that I am not going home.

wish me luck! i am going to bed ... church at 9 in the morning.


sincerely sierra

Good Change

My last day, my last night. Sigh.

Wow! How life changes! So I pretty much had an amazing day! I went dorm hopping from st george to cedar! i cant believe my friends are in college! I can't believe I am moving out tomorrow! UGH! So much to do so little time you know?!

On a sadder note tomorrow I have to find out what is wrong with me ... im pretty nervous I don't know why... Sigh again.

I am feeling a big change coming on! :) A good one!

Trivial in a Grand Aspect

Emotion is truly an amazing amazing thing. It's crazy how I can feel so anxious, so depressed, so lost, so happy, so loved, so excited, and so innocent all at the same time.
The issue is, my emotions need to be sorted out. Tomorrow is my last full day living here at home. Oh, how things change! Oh, how things and people come and go in our lives leaving only small prints, when at the time you thought they were the world. When at a time they were the world.
No good thing lasts forever. Not even people, not here in this life.
And that's why I'm leaving this hell of a town and moving on to... well better things. I hope that me be on my own, not dependent on any body will help me realize who I am and what I need to do. Everyday is beautiful.

On a less dramatic note me and my mom went on a mommy daughter date yesterday. We went to Olive Garden and went shopping. I got two dresses. Today me and my dad went on a daddy daughter date and we drove to Oscars Cafe in Springdale and sat and talked and looked towards Zions. Speaking only of trivial things.
what is trivial in this great world, in such a grand aspect?
Maybe everything is trivial, thats why we cannot dwell on anything for too long.

ps i cut off my hair.


sincerely sierra

No End

There was something really great that I realized today.... and then I forgot what it was. Figures.

These realizations are really quite profound sometimes. It has been really interesting lately. I mean, I think I saw one of my best friends for the last time.. in who knows how long. I also had my first fro. Really its like two circumstances happen at the same time that play my emotions in opposite directions. I guess this is where it all starts, where I have to start learning who I am and what I believe in. I can't be split forever.

This is my last weekend of my work at sand hollow, tomorrow will be my last sunday living at home.

Even though my life is so full of last, it is also chalk-full of firsts. The only issue is, is that I can't decide if it is the "lasts" that will make me who I am, but rather the "firsts".

Really, I believe that this whole life is a first...  there is no ends.

final hoorah hoorah

I am nervous today... and I am VERY lazy. Am I allowed to have such a lazy day...a week and a half before I move out? I dont know but I am in a mood where I am just going to do it anyway. Later tonight me and my best friend are having our final hoorah hoorah! As depressing as it might be ... we are not going to think to much of separation tonight... only of being crazy and being ourselves. Maybe someday in the future we will be together again... whether sharing an apartment or going to the same university or maybe we will both end up settling down here in Hurricane again. Sometimes its nice to not know the future.. it gives this life an edge.

Sigh. Well thats about all that is happening lately. Really. Life needs to give me some excitement. though i might be hoping for less excitement later this month.

sincerely sierra

Like A Bullet in the Rain

Well, It's true. I have a new goal and it is to be happy. Here it is... time to start college and with this new beginning.....I am putting this past behind me. Forever... only to be looked at from the outside... not an inner emotional experience. This is it. Today is the day... Embrace Change, Wear Red Shoes, Begin Today,
Take Flight towards your dreams.....

Believe in Possibility



Sincerely Sierra