sincerely sierra

question....  what is it that make me..me?

there are days that i cry. i think that i cry because i can't get some things out of my mind.
Death.
Life.
Love.
and...lack of love.

While we're young, lets breathe in each moment as we walk the road to what we become. Let us DREAM BIG, and love even bigger. while we're young.


i am at this huge turning point in my life. i think. what are these decisions? and why do i have to make these decisions through the loudest thunderstorm i have ever lived through. i can't here what is sincerely sierra anymore, only voices that tell me what is insincere... what is false... and what is reality. Reality is false lately... it's not a reality that belongs to me...it has to be someone else's ... because i shouldn't have to worry about death and love and life.  I shouldn't look at someone and wonder when they will take there last breath. That is not sincere.. that is not sierra.

So what is Sierra? Is it me that takes this thunderstorm and attempts to dance in the rain? Is it me that faces a choice head on without fear? Is it me that leans on the Lord Jesus Christ to get me through
this storm....    Is this me ? Or something to look forward to to become.  Become....    

Here I am with these Dreams.. with these fragments of thoughts... And I wonder.. will they ever become? and is it really up to me?   In just 2 months I will leave My town, My Community, My Ward, My Friends, My Home, My Family, My LIfe.     Everything I knew to be true.

And today... I ask.. What is sincerely sierra?