How is it that I am always left to these decisions, where neither outcome sounds great to me. Can't I just want something?? Is there something wrong with believing in this, and sometimes I am not making decisions at all. I just keep existing only because my eyes keep shutting and opening, and shutting and opening. With every second it is one second more that I did it, and everything always has to end. Sometimes I just keep laughing because it is the opposite of crying and it feels good to me. The tears are always turning to laughter and apologies. Nothing will be like it was, but life has to continue and it has to change. And all of the sudden I am a step ahead and I am so proud! Look at me! Look what I can do!!! It's only when I look around and see that no one is looking. That it's just me, except of that boy with blue eyes that knows what it's like. I don't know him though, and we just look at each other. And I think about love stories and forever and I smile because only something so beautiful like us could last forever. My dreams are scary, my days are tiring, and my decisions confusing. But my friends are funny, and my family even stronger, and my hopes crazier than ever.
This makes everything okay.
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