Exhausted from Running

Something about me is that I like to know the end before I know beggining. I read the last chapter of the book before I read the first, I watch the last episode fo the tv show before the beggining, and I always dream it before I do it. I thought I was covering my ground really, I think of every possibility good and bad. So how did I not see this coming? Partly because I really did see it coming and chose not to believe it. I knew really all a long, we all did, but we don't act on that because we don't want that to be the ending. Maybe if we don't believeit, it won't ever happen. Maybe if we don't dream it it won't come true. The problem is is that I did dream, One afternoon in Logan. I layed down to fall asleep because I was frustrated and was feeling really sad. I put my head phones in and the covers over my head. And I dreamed that my Dad got on a train, ( I actually blogged about the dream...I'm happy I did!) and the door closed before I could get on the train with him. In that train were a bunch of people I didn't know, but I knew I cared about. The train started as I was pounding on the door begging my Dad to let me in. The door didn't open and I ran after that train until I was to exhausted to chase it. I sobbed and I sobbed, for days in my dream, Then I woke up.

I dreamed it, and now I am exhuasted of running.